"This is a poem that was written at one of the worst moments of my life. I was saying goodbye to the most amazing person I've ever met, and not sure if I'd ever see her again. Luckily, it would have a happy ending. But I didn't know that, as I scribbled sadly in Dublin Airport on the wrong side of security."
We fought so hard to escape this moment
Yet to miss it would have been unthinkable.
Your face is pale, your palms wet,
Your fingers and mine are tangled, afraid to let go.
Beside us, you mother stands impatiently,
She can't understand the big fuss.
The mask I wear is cracking and I can't stop it.
You drop my hand and pull my entire body close,
We embrace. Break away. Embrace again.
Don't wan't to break away.
Part of me wishes you'd miss your flight.
Just when I feel it might be a possibility, you sigh,
Kissing me once, our lips are dry and cracked from crying.
You turn. Uncertain. Slowly.
You look back.
Part of you hopes I'm coming too.
Your eyes implore it, your tears beg it,
And I feel my heart break.
You keep walking. I don't move. I can't.
I want to run or scream but I'm frozen,
Standing on the lonely side of the airport.
And when I can no longer see you, my mask breaks.
I wait a moment for you to return, then resign myself to leave